Occasionally you have to look on the bright side

Do you ever get the feeling that your life has consisted of a string of failures and dissappointments? Poor choices and missed opportunities? Well, I feel a little like that today. I'd like to write about all sorts of exciting things that are going on in my life, how I'm meeting tons of new people, and having a grand old time with life. However, that isn't exactly where I'm at right now. In fact, I feel like I'm pretty much at the other end of the spectrum at the mo'. I find it difficult to write about bad or negative experiences because I'm really so much better off than so many other people in the world. Still, some days you feel pretty shitty and defeated and your not yet feeling excited about the prospect of picking yourself up, dusting yourself off, having a look around and then getting on with it. By the way... I hate cliches. The reason I'm upset right now is because I didn't get into grad school... again. Both times it's been hard to deal with because one puts a lot of hope in such things and when it doesn't go your way, well... you just kind of lose heart. I don't know where I'm going with this post, hell... I just don't know where I'm going... and it sucks. I'm very scared as well. A situation sensitive people often find themselves in. Right now, I want to just curl up into a little ball and just sort of melt away. I shall post again soon, but for what it's worth I just had to get a little off my chest so I don't suffocate.